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Masquerade@Irenelim Fashion ep.2

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This is the continuation of the previous story. Click HERE to read it.

And so, with the help of Astrea’s guardian cat and the beautiful good witch, the fairy princess finally made up her mind to choose the Rosette Neckline Silky Dress With Waist Tie from Irenelim Fashion online boutique after pondering on which dress she should wear to the masquerade.

Earlier on, she didn’t really know which dress she should choose, but in the end, a sense of deja vu washed through her when she saw that dress. It’s actually the same dress she wore back then when she was in her own realm. It was not sexy…it’s just plain and demure, almost fairy-like.

The dress she chose features an organza overlay embellished with an exquisite neckline topped with rosettes. Romantic and innocent. It was just like the dress that she have worn when she first met the devil king in the times before her memories were erased by the evil sorceress. Something just tugged to her heart to get that dress, despite the fact that other dresser are much more sexier would get more attention from the crowds.

The dress was delivered to her just before the masquerade, and without further ado, she puts on the dress that came from Irenelim Fashion, and rushed to the masquerade.

Unlike Cinderella, Astrea were not late to the masquerade. In fact, she was punctual, and there was a crowd of horny ladies with sexy, revealing dresses who lusts after Narcissus, the one whose heart actually belongs to her.

After five minutes being in the masquerade, Astrea felt uncomfortable with the snickering around her. The people who were attending the masquerade said she was too plain, and a girl like her shouldn’t be attending such a posh event hosted by one of the town’s most eligible bachelor.

Narcissus who was in his human form, on the other hand, were completely bored with the mortals’ antics and wondered to himself why humans are so lusty and vain. For a the briefest moment, he contemplate on destroying the humans who attended the masquerade. It was completely an eyesore for him to see the mortals antics.

Then he caught a glimpse of something familiar. A petite figure that stood in front of a door, contemplating to leave and she resembles his fairy princess. His heart skipped a few beat before restarting with a resounding thud. That’s her! That’s Astrea, the love of his life, his Queen, the one who vowed to love him til her soul is no more and she was about to walk away from him before he could even have the chance to get close to her. He couldn’t be wrong. He could recognize her anywhere, despite the fact that she hid her face beneath the masquerade mask.

Alarmed, Narcissus made way towards her in order to stop her from leaving the mansion, but much to his chagrin, the mortals who were attending the masquerade began to flock him, thinking that they will have a chance with him as long as they danced with him.

Feeling insufficient and self conscious, Astrea turn around to leave, but the good witch appeared out of nowhere and stopped her from leaving. The good witch told her that she would regret if she leave, and that the love that she craved for all this while is just a few steps away.

Astrea laughed, almost mirthlessly at the witch’s words. She told the witch bitterly that nobody would ever want a plain girl like her. Finally escaping the mortals, Narcissus finally managed to get to where she was standing, just in time to hear the conversation between Astrea and the beautiful witch.

“You could never be plain, princess…” Narcissus said as he held a single stalk of rose in his hands and offered it to her.

“Would you honour me with a dance?” he then asked her, bewitching her completely. Absent- mindedly, as if under an enchantment, she agreed, earning gasps of disbelief from the people around her. Envious whispers were on air, but both of them take no heed of it.

They dance the night away in each other’s arms, never wanting the night to be over and wishing that time could just stop for both of them.

The witch who was present at all time watched thoughtfully, hoping hard that they would end up together.

So… ladies and gentlemen… did they end up together? Did Astrea’s memories return to her and did Narcissus managed to win her heart all over again? Only time will tell, but for what it’s worth, thanks to the efficiency of Irenelim Fashion online boutique’s crew, the fairy princess managed to go to the masquerade without hassle. You might want to check them out… who knows you’ll get yourself a magical time of your life with a little bit of their help?

Cleffairy: This is just a teaser. In the real Royal Masquerade, Narcissus never did pursue Astrea that way; by hosting a masquerade. He hired her as a live in nurse instead, and they were already in a relationship when they attended a masquerade. Do note that this is not a paid post, but rather a creative review of Irenelim Fashion products and service. Kindly head over to their webbie to find out more about them.

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A Penny For Your Thoughts, Current Issue, IT/ Computing, writing

Protect yourself with…

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Not condoms, but Creative Commons.

Protect yourself, or rather, your work with Creative Commons. This is not a paid posting, but this is something I’d like to share with all of you out there. Originally, I intend to write about something else, but after reading Eric’s most recent blog entry, I can’t help but post up this one first. LOL…

No, Eric didn’t plagiarize my work or anything close to that, but his funny statement on he dare not a title that I used for my blog entry cuz he’s afraid that he might ended up selling his ass on the street because he thought that I might charged him royalty for using a sentence from my blog made me giggle non-stop, and it got me thinking about copyright.

Eric was joking, of course, but his little joke got me thinking and wonder. How many of you are concern about copyright and Fair Use when you are writing your entries? And how many of you knows that you could actually copyright your blog?

As a writer, I’ve always been concern about copyright and royalty. More often than not, I try not to use excerpts or pictures from the net, as it doesn’t belong to me, and for what it’s worth, it’s licensed and not royalty free. In other words, you cannot use it without paying or without permission, and if you did, you can be subjected to lawsuit.

I told Eric that he may use whatever he can find in my blog as long as he give credit to me as my blog is protected or rather, licensed under Creative Commons.

All right, ladies and gentlemen, what is Creative Commons? Allow me to elaborate. Creative Commons is a nonprofit corporation dedicated to making it easier for people to share and build upon the work of others, consistent with the rules of copyright.

They provide free licenses and other legal tools to mark creative work with the freedom the creator wants it to carry, so others can share, remix, use commercially, or any combination thereof.

Creative Commons defines the spectrum of possibilities between full copyright and the public domain. From all rights reserved to no rights reserved.

Creative Commons licenses help you keep your copyright while allowing certain uses of your work — a “some rights reserved” copyright.

If you scroll down, you’d notice that on the bottom right of my blog, there’s this logo:

My blog, Over A Cuppa Tea is is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 2.5 Malaysia License. And permissions beyond the scope of this license is available at cleffairy@gmail.com.

That would mean, you are free to copy and share my work with others, as long as you give the credits to me and not making money out of it.

In other words, you are not allowed to use plagiarize my article and claim it as yours and make money out of it. You are also not allowed to use my work for commercial use. You are also not allowed to modify or change my articles and claim it as yours, unless you’re using it for Fair Use.

So, to put it simply…I don’t allow the plagiarism of my work, and the use of my work without permission and if I found out you’ve been doing hanky panky stuff with my articles, your ass might be screwed.

So, my dear precious ones… if you are concern about people copying your work and making money out of it, or using your masterpiece without your permission to taint your good name, head over to Creative Commons and protect your blog, your images as well as your media under it.

For those who already knew about Creative Commons, thank you very much for bearing with me. 😀

Cleffairy: I hate plagiarism… that’s why I protect my blog under Creative Commons.

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The purpose of writing…

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I couldn’t sleep again. I woke up in the middle of the night after having a sleep paralysis, and I wasn’t too comfortable to go back to bed once again, despite being completely comfortable under the sheets with my one and only.

Writing has always been therapeutic to me, and so here I am, writing…or rather, blogging? This will be a yet another short entry, cuz though I am having loads of plot bunnies in my head and feeling truly inspired to write about many things, my fingers seems to feel a bit rebellious and not really taking order from my brain. I have to admit it. I am tired. But I simply could not rest, as I feel restless and unsettled, but nothing is going to change that in the short period of time, so let’s just leave my sleeping problems and disorder out of the discussion. Let us talk about the purpose of writing instead.

Sometimes, I really wonder if I’ve strayed from the real purpose of setting up this blog? Well, I suppose, at some point, I really did stray, because my true intent of blogging is writing from the heart, just like I did with my novels and short stories.

I want to touch people’s heart and change lives and make a difference, and hoping so much at least one person out there become a better person because of my writing. That is my purpose. My mission.

I wanted to inspire others, share one part of my heart that I would never do with people around me. That is what I want. To touch people’s heart, to reach out, to make people think, and to educate people on certain matters and close the generation as well as the geographical gap.

I don’t know how successful I am at achieving it, but for what it’s worth, I’m glad that I did reach out and made friends with some people through my writing.

I have a small body and small voice. Nobody would notice me if I were to talk in public and express my views, as I don’t look intimidating enough, but most would notice me and know me through my writing because I sounded so fiery and spirited in most of my article, and even emails. I may be small, I may not be loud, but I couldn’t thank God for more for giving me a bigger voice in other form.

I write to reach out to all of you out there. To share my point of view and a part of my heart with you that I couldn’t really share with people around me. I wonder… what is the purpose of you writing your blog? I’ve always wanted to write from my heart and touch people’s heart with my thoughts and my views, that’s why there’s never a picture of me in my blog. I want everyone to ‘see’ me through my writing. Not my pictures.

How about you? What is your purpose of writing?


Cleffairy: If writing short stories and novels and publishing them online is a form of ‘blogging’, I could have been a blogger since 1998.

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Coupon Heaven: Coupon Chief

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I’m not quite a fan of buying things online. Seriously. I’ll be very honest with you on that. I thought that sometimes, items are somewhat expensive, and I often wonder if buying from online stores is reliable. I don’t quite like the feeling of buying things and waiting for them to arrive at my doorsteps via courier as well. I’m never good at waiting, and somehow, anticipation kills! 🙁

But as of late, after being involved in NaNoWriMo and Script Frenzy, I have been exposed to online book publishing as well as ordering online ML kits where I’m required to make some payments in order to get some stuff to work, and I found myself wishing from the bottom of my heart that I have a discount code or some sort to enable me to enjoy lower prices and rates when I desperately need to buy things online. I wish for this especially when I was shopping for royalty free pictures to be used for my book cover design. I felt that it is not worth paying for such an expensive price for just a simple picture. It’s a royal pain in my PayPal account 🙁

I browsed around and found that actually there are loads of websites that offers free coupons for the online consumers to use, though not all of them is suitable for me to use. Among them is Couponchief.com.

Coupon Chief is one of the fastest growing coupon sites, with over 250k visitors/month. They have over 50k coupons for over 15000 stores, and the coupons are free for consumers to use. Talk about frugal online shopping. Honestly, I never really knew that there are such website out there that offers so many coupons for various online shops in just one database, and best part of it that it’s all completely free to use.

Some online stores really goes for the jugular, and I believe, if you’ve been doing online shopping all these while without any discount coupons during the checkout of your shopping cart, you have been wasting quite a decent amount of money. Trust me on this. I’ve been there, and burnt a hole in my pocket.

Next time you shop online, try checking out Coupon Chief, they have loads of coupons giveaways that will entitle you for discounts for various online shops and boutique. One of the many coupons over there might be the right one for you.

Coupon Chief is a website where you can browse and find coupons, discounts and deals for thousands of stores. The site lets you search for coupons and browse them by stores and popular product tags. All listed coupons are up to date and rated by community so that you don’t have to waste your time on expired coupons.

If you are an online entrepreneur, you might want to check their website as well. With Coupon Chief, you can also make money just by uploading coupons and sharing the savings. You can check it out further in their website on how to do it.

If you are a facebook or twitter user, you can consider being their  facebook fan or their twitter follower as well. They post their updates and special offers frequently on their facebook page as well.

People who practices frugal living often take time to do coupon clippings to save on their purchases. I used to do that when I was still studying in college. I tend to collect McD’s coupons… you know… buy one Big Mac free one Fillet O Fish kinda coupons. I’m still doing coupon clippings, though not McD’s.

I’m quite amazed, actually, that now if you shop online, you can also use coupons to save on your online purchase. Trust me… when you use coupons, you can actually save heaps when buying from online stores.

Cleffairy: Every penny counts. Save up, folks.

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I’m going crazy, and Screnzy…

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Literally. Going crazy. Insane. A nutcase in the house. That’s Cleffairy the looney fairy for you, folks. January was wild, February was frightful, March is a mayhem, and the upcoming April will send me into a frenzy. Script Frenzy, that is.

Yeah… I’m participating again, though I’m in the midst of something very, very important to me at the moment. A busy life for me is a good life. I like challenges and motivation.

And thank God for Script Frenzy and NaNoWriMo, I’d be thrown into a whirlwind of adventure every April and November for Script Frenzy and NaNoWriMo.

I did it again. I’ve gone and pledge my April for a yet another literary madness that not many would understand. And not only that, this year, I won’t only be participating, but I’ll be hosting literary parties and write ins and online word sprint on weekends.

For those who are a Malaysian Screnzy, kindly check the Malaysian region calendar for updates and infos on upcoming events.

And for those who is not a Screnzy, and had no idea on what I’m talking about, check it out HERE. And if you’re mad enough do ditch your mundane life and join me in this temporary insanity, you’re welcome to do so.

What is Script Frenzy?Good question. Script Frenzy is NaNoWriMo sister program.

It’s an international writing event in which participants take on the challenge of writing 100 pages of scripted material in the month of April. As part of a donation-funded nonprofit, Script Frenzy charges no fee to participate; there are also no valuable prizes awarded or “best” scripts singled out. Every writer who completes the goal of 100 pages is victorious and awe-inspiring and will receive a handsome Script Frenzy Winner’s Certificate and web icon proclaiming this fact.

Even those who fall short of the word goal will be applauded for making a heroic attempt. Really, you have nothing to lose—except that nagging feeling that there’s a script inside you that may never get out.

THE INFO

Who: You and everyone you know. No experience required.

What: 100 pages of original scripted material in 30 days. (Screenplays, stage plays, TV shows, short films, and graphic novels are all welcome.)

When: April 1 – 30. Every year. Mark your calendars.

Where: Online and in person (if you want!). Hang out in the forums, join your fellow participants at write-ins, and make friends by adding writing buddies online.

Why: Because you have a story to tell. Because you want a creative challenge. Because you’ll be disappointed if you missed out on the adventure. Because you need to make time for you.

How: Sign up. Tell everyone that you are in the Frenzy. Clear your calendar. Start some wrist exercises.  Have a word sprint. Have fun and poison yourself with caffeine.

THE RULES

1) To be crowned an official Script Frenzy winner, you must write a script (or multiple scripts) of at least 100 total pages and verify this tally on ScriptFrenzy.org.

2) You may write individually or with a partner. Writing teams will have a 100-page total goal for their co-written script or scripts.

3) Script writing may begin no earlier than 12:00:01 AM on April 1 and must cease no later than 11:59:59 PM on April 30, local time.

4) You may write screenplays, stage plays, TV shows, short films, comic book and graphic novel scripts, adaptations of novels, or any other type of script your heart desires.

Still unclear? Check out their Frequently Asked Questions.

Malaysian Screnzies, kindly contact me at admin@cleff.bia.garf.us or cleffairy@gmail.com. I am your ML for this year, and there will be the goodies giveaways at the kick off party/write ins.

So, what are you waiting for, folks? Join me in this literary madness.

Cleffairy: Nothing beats a little bit of madness and a dash of adventure in this mundane life. And noooooo… this is not an advertorial!

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Freelancer=Jobless+Not Working?

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I daresay that my math teachers would hang themselves out of disappointment and frustrations if they happened to stumble upon my ‘algebra equation’.

Pardon me for the rather queer ‘formula’, but this is the simplest way I could put in words to describe the misconception of the term ‘freelance’ , especially in Malaysia.

I am a freelancer myself. Freelance Editor cum Writer. People often ask me what I do for a living as I am quite flexible in how I manage my time. I could go out anytime I like, do things spontaneously as long as it’s within one or two hour notice and many more.

It irks me to no end when I told people that I am a freelancer and working from home, they would negatively assume that I am not working and all I do day in, day out, is shake my arse at home. Bloody brilliant indeed.

I am not quite sure what is wrong with Malaysian in general, but if you tell them that you are a freelancer, they would automatically assume that you are not working, period, no arguments.

This is absurd! And it most definitely annoys me. I am more than sure that this does not only apply to me, but many other men and women in Malaysia as well. Some people who are SOHO workers are accused of being a lazy bum as well.

Bloody hell, what is wrong with Malaysians in general? As long as you tell people that you’re a freelancer or a SOHO worker, people would either look at you with disdain, and almost disgusted that you are not slaving in the corporate office from 9am-5pm. And then the talk and lecture on ‘you should stop bumming around at home and get a job’ would start.

Malaysian had a rather twisted mind. As long as you are not working in an office, there would be possibility of people accusing you of not working. First, freelancers are associated with lazy bums who are not working and does nothing but wasting away at home or loitering the street during working hours. What’s next, I truly wonder? Teachers are accused of not working too ? Well… teachers do not work in office… why not accuse them of that as well?

Malaysian says the darndest things. I’ve seen many men who are freelancers and doing business of their own accused of not working as well, just because they don’t have an office to go to each day and night. Just take a look at the case below, written in nastily broken English, or rather, Manglish.

Case 1

A man and his wife picks up their kids together in school everyday, and it happened to be during regular working hours. This is what will happened:

Kaypochee Housewives: Eh, how come ah, you both everyday oso pick up your kid together? Both of you not working wan ah?

Husband: I’m a freelancer. So is she.

Kaypochee Housewives: Ohhh, you both are not working ah? So where does your money come from?

Case 2

A man who is doing his business on a small scale picks up his children from school at around 2pm every damn day.

Kaypochee bitch: Eh, how come you everyday oso come and pick up your son/daughter yourself? You’re not working ah?

Man: I’m working for myself. Doing small business.

Kaypochee bitch: But everyday you so free wan worr, can pick up your kids. Nonid to go office wan ah?

Man: I’m working for myself wan ma, working from home. The home is my office.

The bitch started to act smart at this point of the conversation.

Kaypochee bitch: Aiyohhh, you’re a househusband, say early la…I know wan la your kind. Haiyorr, mister, you cannot like this. Why you let your wife work and you stay home to jaga the kids? Men should go out and work wan ma. Get a job, dun just stay home. need me to recommend some job for you bo?

Case 3

A woman who is a freelancer receives a call from her housewives friends. They asked her out for a shopping session when she’s having a project that needs to be submitted soon.

Cao Cibai Bitch: Come, let’s go shopping. Got sale wan worr, very rugi if dun go and grab those stuff! Dun just stay at home and rot nia. Must go out, shopping, chill out, socialize…

Woman: I can’t go out. My workload piling, I have to finish up my work first. The submission date is tomorrow.

Cao Cibai Bitch: Haiyorr, I don’t understand you la. You’re housewife only, why bother la… those work can do later…your husband won’t die wan la if you dun cook one meal for him! Ask him to eat out la! Simple nia!

I think, the above scenarios is rather common in our conservative and narrow minded society.  Most men and women who chose to be a freelancer would at least encounter at least one person who would mistook them for a lazybum who does nothing but rot at home.

Some people really do not understand the concept of freelancing. So, it is time to learn  and brush up some English after reading the awfully rotten conversation in the scenarios above.

Freelance definition:

  • working for yourself

  • work independently and on temporary contracts rather than for a long-term employer

  • freelancer: a writer or artist who sells services to different employers without a long-term contract with any of them

  • mercenary(a): serving for wages in a foreign army; “mercenary killers”

So basically, a freelancer, freelance worker, or freelance is somebody who is self-employed and is not committed to a particular employer  for longterm. The term was first used by the late Sir Walter Scott, the writer of Ivanhoe to describe a “medieval mercenary warrior” or “free-lance”.

Fields where freelancing is common include journalism, journal publishing, and other forms of writing, editing, copyediting, proofreading, indexing, copywriting, computer programming and graphic design, consulting and translating.

Freelance practice varies greatly. Some require clients to sign written contracts, while others may perform work based on verbal agreements, perhaps enforceable through the very nature of the work. Some freelancers may provide written estimates of work and request deposits from clients.

Payment for freelance work also varies greatly. Freelancers may charge by the day, hour, or page or on a per-project basis. Freelancers may earn or may not earn big amount of money, but that is another story.

I’d like to stress it here is that when someone mentioned that they are freelancers, that would mean that they do have a job, and they are not shaking their bloody asses at home, waiting for money to drop from the sky.

Some people chose to be a freelancer for many reason. Flexibility with time is one of it. Some mothers, or even single parents might choose to do freelance work as it would enable them to spend more time and their small children and whatnot, so I’d appreciate it if all of you out there stop accusing freelancers of being lazy bums who knows nothing but rot at home. Freelancing might not be a great career prospect to some, but to most, it is rather rewarding, as when one chooses to be a freelancer, they are completely in control of their time, and they get to spend more time with their family.

Cleffairy: Not sure what certain words mean? Use the dictionary. Speechless? Use the thesaurus.

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Cleffy's Pillow Talk

Sex gets hotter when…

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Sex gets hotter, and better with age. As of late, everyone has been complaining how hot they are, and it’s driving me insane, because sometimes, hot weather ‘inspire’ me. And when I am inspired, I write more than usual, and when I write more than usual, there’s tendency that I will write something that is not appropriate for minors.

Fine, fine, it’s not the weather, I admit it, but I tend to get aroused by my own writing, especially those mushy scenes in my own novel. 🙁 I am not quite sure how many authors out there seems to have problem with this, but I know those in my writing group tends to get carried away and gets aroused by their own writing, and couldn’t seems to stop writing ‘hot stuff’ and their novel would be in the danger of turning into literotica.

Anyway… I was writing a scene in my latest novel where the characters are standing in front of Bocca De La Verita. And the antagonist is worrying about entering her 30s when she began to ‘invade’ my mind. Yes… women in their 20s or late 20s often worry about going into their 30s. They felt old, unattractive and not to mention worried about their sexual performance.

You see, most women would worry that their sexual performance and satisfaction would decrease as they hit their 30s. They would worry that their partner would not desire them as much, and automatically… it will affect their mind and their libido would decrease.

Little did most women know that sex, actually gets better with age. Being experienced in bed is actually an advantage, of course, but what I want to talk about here is that there’s studies that indicate women could possibly get a G-spot orgasm easier in their 30s rather than in their 20s. This is indeed something to be looking forward to, isn’t it? LOL…

There is some evidence that the intensity of a woman’s G-spot orgasm is mediated by the hormone estrogen. Most young women under 30 find clitoral orgasms to be more powerful because, due to their relatively high estrogen levels, their vaginal lining becomes too thick to allow direct stimulation of their G-spot nerves.

As the estrogen level begins to decline in women during their 30s, the vaginal lining becomes thinner and the G-spot becomes more accessible during fingering or penetration. That’s why most women feel that they begin to peak sexually in their early to mid-30s.

Anyway, ladies and gentlemen, this is just a warm up. 😛 Next article, is the real thing, and I’m going to write about how to master a woman’s G-spot in order to give her intense G-spot orgasm. The next article is actually a request, and I have somehow forgotten about it til last night when I was researching for my latest novel in progress.

A friend of mine had requested me on ‘someone’s behalf’ to write about squirting not long ago. However, if one wants to write about ‘squirting’, one would have to talk about G-spot orgasm and stimulation.

Consider yourself being forewarned. Kindly stay away if you’re afraid of heat and not in the mood for some sizzling romance.

Cleffairy: When it gets too hot to handle, just strip it off and do some strip tease.

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The empty pages…

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I fear a lot of things, but I am definitely not afraid to admit that I’m afraid of a lot of thing, for I know, I am only human, and it is human nature to be fearful of things. By fearing things and be afraid of things that is beyond us, we become more aware of our environment. It’s  nature’s gift to us human to protect ourselves against harm.

As I said, I fear a lot of things. One of them is empty pages. Empty pages scares me. It makes me feel empty and uninspired. It made me feel dead inside and unmotivated. Empty pages, to me, is just like loneliness and sorrow. The feelings they gave me are dreadful and almost unbearable.

After 63 days, 509 pages and 233007 words… my latest novel manuscript is finally completed, and once again, I found myself staring at the empty, clean piece of office document once again. Being able to complete this manuscript is a big achievement for me, because if I’m honest to myself, I know not many is capable of writing 509 pages in just 63 days consecutively.

I am supposed to feel grateful and relieved as I’ve persevered til the end. But instead of feeling that way, my latest manuscript made me feel empty, very, very empty, and suddenly, I feel as if I had too much time to spend. There’s a void in my heart. I feel like I am attending my character’s funeral, and I am supposed to say goodbye to them. I have to say goodbye to their quirks, their adventures, misadventures, and angst as well as their passion. I am no longer in control of what they say or do, and this is just sad for me.

I hate it when my novels comes to an end… because that will mean my horrendous editing nightmares will begin. Not to mention that I’ll have to face the empty pages once again.

Yes… empty pages scares me. It’s one of those things that I’m scared of, among many other things. It’s a weird thing to be scared off, isn’t it? But I am just human. I fear many things. I wonder, what are you scared of? Or you’re scared of nothing?

Cleffairy: Going to overcome my fear for empty pages by starting a new adventure with new characters in a new novel. That’s the only way I won’t feel dead and empty, isn’t it? Yes, I will overcome the fear of feeling empty, by being brave and start writing a line or two to fill the void on the empty pages.

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My Favourite Mistake…

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‘My Favourite Mistake’ is actually the title of one of my old novel that I wrote on a whim, dating back in 1999. I was rather prolific back then. I had the stamina to write so much that I produce 33 novels by year 2002. I would kill for such stamina now.

As per instructed by my damn letters to myself today, I am supposed to read my old junks and do something about them, but somehow, I found that what I wrote needed a total revamp, cuz it would sounded looney in this age and era.

I wanted to edit some of my old, neglected and forgotten works today, but it seems that my inner editor is not back from her Caribbean vacation yet, so I have to wait til she comes back before I do anything drastic to my novels.

I am not sure if I’d like to share ‘My Favourite Mistake’ with all of you over here, but I surely want to share the moral that I try to deliver in that novel, which is, never, ever be afraid to make mistakes. You see, we are just human. We’re not angels or Saints…we’re far from it.

And therefore, we should not be afraid to make mistakes, and should not allow people tell you what a failure you are when you make big mistakes in your life. You’ll never know if the mistakes you made will turn out to be something good, and is actually a blessing in disguise.

Do you know why we actually make mistakes in our lives? You see, we makes mistakes so that we can grow up, toughen up and wise up. We are not stupid if we make mistakes. We’re only stupid when we make the same mistake twice and did not learn from it at all.

I made a lot of mistakes in my life. Some of the mistakes changed my life drastically. I came to regret and resent some of those mistakes that I made. Sometimes, when I sit down and allow my thoughts wander, I wonder why I was so foolish that I allowed myself to make mistakes? I feel angry at myself for being ignorant and stubborn.

But looking back, I am glad that I made some of those mistakes, because for what it’s worth, I became a better and a more responsible woman as I deal with my mistakes maturely rather than cowering away from it.

People often condemn me and judge me for my mistakes and my decisions. And naturally, I would feel upset when they tell me to my face about it. But I know that people don’t get smart overnight. At least, I don’t. I make mistakes, corrected them and learn from them. I am not a failure, but people who thinks that one should refrain from making mistakes are the biggest loser.

Why do I say this? Well… those people who are afraid to make mistake will refrain themselves from living their life to the fullest as they have fear for falling down. They are the kind of people who would never be strong and attempt to get up when they fall down while people who makes mistake often will know that their failure is just temporary and will nonchalantly bounce back and be in a better shape soon after. People who tackle life as it is without having fear of making mistakes are brave and adventurous, and they should be respected instead of being looked down upon.

I made countless mistakes in my life and it made me a better person in whole. I would have been nothing without those mistakes that I made. I won’t be the woman I am today without those mistakes, and honestly, I am glad that I was brave enough to allow myself to make such mistakes. Even if I could turn back time, I wouldn’t change anything for the world, for I am happy with the outcome, regardless of what people say.

I have my few favourite mistakes that I can proudly tell people. Do you have any?

Quote from ‘My Favourite Mistake’ written by Cleffairy: Life is not a spelling or a grammar test. Don’t be afraid to make mistake. I made a mistake, and I found you. You are my favourite mistake.

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