A Penny For Your Thoughts

Hope you have a super…birthday.

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You know… there’s a lot of people who sticks by me since they got to know me. At first… they thought I’m somewhat a monster. But when they came to know me, they didn’t see me as such… well…at least not that I know of.

No… I’m not going to say happy birthday to me, because my birthday is not today. 1st September is not my birthday.Today is the birthday of 2 people that had been in my life for as long as I started this blog.

One, is the birthday of my little sister, Starsecrets. I get to know her a couple of years ago when I got addicted to an online game known as Maplestory. Yes. She didn’t know me as a blogger, but a gamer. She knew the ‘original’ ‘ Cleffairy. An elemental magician, a wand wielding Ice Mage who goes around in the game world freezing monsters and fighting game bosses. She did not know me as a blogger, or even a writer. She had the pleasure and the privileges of seeing me at my brattiest, wackiest, and nastiest! LOL.

Starsecrets stood by me during my darkest hours. I didn’t have anyone back then… a couple of years ago. I have yet to discover many kind bloggers out there. I had nobody to talk to about what’s bothering me, and she was there for me during the time I was depressed and close to suicide. And even though she’s not a Malaysian, she came to visit me to celebrate Christmas together a couple of years ago.

She’s a dear friend, and a sweet little sister. One I could count on to be there fore me when I need to cry and need a hug or two. Mei…thank you for being there for jie. Jie miss you a lot. *hugs* Wish to see you again. On your birthday… jie hope you would be happy, contented, and wiser. If you need a pair of ear to listen to you, you know jie’s number. You can always call, or sms jie. Jie will be there for you. Remember that. Jie loves you, and so does Da Jie, Ah Bear, Didi, Jojo, Bra, Panties, Jia0 Jia0 and Si Pet. We all love you.

And then came the story when I just started to blog. I used free platform back then. WordPress blog. I blogged about current issues, political issues as well as my lunatic rant and raving. Not many were interested in what I had to say back then. Only few paid attention to what I had to say and take my words seriously. Among them are Pete, Calvin and Chris.

Today, 1st September, is also Chrisau’s birthday. He had been a good friend and very supportive of my writing ever since I started blogging. And therefore, in honour of his birthday, I’d like to wish him a very happy 40th birhday. :d *EVIL GRINZ* Don’t worry Chris. You’ll be my ‘little brother’ forever, no matter how the clock goes tick tock! LOL. Thank you so much for being a loyal reader and still reading what I have to say from 2 years ago til this very day. I really do appreciate you taking me seriously back then, and I really appreciate your thoughts. You have been really kind to me.


Cleffairy: Okay, okay…Chris, Pete and Calvin, I know you folks are going to have a huge laugh at my preference on red undies and black silk boxers. *sulk*

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Looking back…

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To me, there’s nothing much to shout about this year’s independence day. The excitement is just like decorating Christmas tree…when it’s over, the decorations would have to be taken down, and the excitement will die.

Being negative, aren’t I? Well… I’m sad. Very sad.

To most, Merdeka is just trending topic… on Twitter, on Facebooks, on blogs…on mainstream media. You shout about being independent… how happy, how lucky you are and all sort of things, but what did you do AFTER 31st August? You still go around, spitting and hurling thinly veiled scarcasm on each other’s skin colour, race and religious beliefs.

Now, don’t look at me like that… as if I say the wrong thing. Just browse around in Malaysian blogsphere, and you’d find many people complaining about how nasty people’s temper gets and how awful drivers get when Ramadan starts.When I see that, I can’t help but feel extremely disgusted.

And not just that… just look at the racism issues that’s going on.

How can I feel that we are liberated from the clutches of the conquerers when even the educators are not instilling good values and encouraging racial harmony among the students? How can I feel that we are born in the same country when discriminations is everywhere, including the teachers?

As much as the Prime Minister would have us believe that everyone are one, WE ARE NOT ONE. We are a lot… we are many, we are plural… and we are different. We could never be one, because ‘we’ are plural. We can only complement each other, and be united, but can never be one, not when we cannot respect each other and accept the fact that we are all unique and different in our own ways.

Until then… we are not truly free. We are not truly ‘Merdeka’ in the sense that we are colonized by our own shrewed minds and discrimination. We are prisoners of our own mind. A true patriot does not just tweet around, facebook-ing around, blogging around on that topic just because everyone else does it on that day… but a true patriot would always accept one another’s cultural, and religious belief, and revel on it every day of their life, regardless of special occasion.

Cleffairy: We are plural, we are varieties, we are different, we are imperfect…but we can be united, if only we can accept that we are not just one, but love ourselves for it. Happy 53rd Merdeka, Malaysians.

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Ramadan Al Mubarak

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This world is full of contradictions. This year, Ramadan, the Muslim fasting month coincide with The Hungry Ghosts Festival. The Muslim believes that during the fasting month, the gate of Hell will be shut and all Evil will be chained and shackled, and they are not able to roam about to do evil on the face of the Earth. That means, there will be no Evil out there to tempt the humankind to do good deeds and all that is left to seduce the human is their own lust and greed.

The superstitious Chinese, on the other hand, believes that during the Hungry Ghosts Festival, the gate of Hell is open, and all Evil and spirits of the dead will be set free for some sort of a vacation.

Contradictions, contradictions… the two month clashed with each other this year. So… which one is real? The ghosts and evil spirits are roaming about? Or the ghosts and evil spirits are locked up in Hell? I don’t know. I am skeptical to both and I am not going to say anything disrespectful to both believers.

I’m not the kind of people who go around condemning what others believe and how they practice their religion. As horrible as I am, I am above insulting people’s religious believe. I even try not to eat in front of Muslim friends during the period of the fasting month. It made me feel guilty if I did that.

Anyway, here’s wishing all Muslim a happy fasting month and a blessed month ahead.

Cleffairy: If you want people to respect your religious beliefs you got to first respect their religious beliefs. Don’t go around discriminating people just because they believe in different God as you are, and practices different way of life from you.

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Father’s Day Celebration 2010

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My father in law is the kind who enjoys good food and good companions, and he often will find excuse to lure us out to eat. This time, the excuse is father’s day. An early Father’s Day celebration.

What I like about dining with father in law is that dining with him is pressure free. He always emphasize on quality time together and not ‘quantity time’ together. The time we usually spend with him are usually short, but it’s very enjoyable. I can get along with my father in law pretty well, as he’s the civilized kind, and could talk a lot of things with me.

This time, we went for steamboat dinner once again. The restaurant was known as Meat Bone Soup Steamboat owned by my sister in law’s friend. Deciding that we should ‘support’ her friend and extort some discount from her friend, we went there instead of our regular steamboat perch.

Before the meal started…. everyone was busy yakking away with my father in law.

Tea in the tea compressor. You can bring your own tea if you want, and they’ll prepare it for you.

Various dips for the seafoods.

I like this dish the most. Fried soft Japanese taufu with sesame seeds sprinkled on top. Goes very well with those dips, especially the Thai sauce dip.

Various seafood, veggies and meat for the steamboat session.

Extra chicken and veggies.

Two kinds of soup. One is ABC soup, while another is extra spicy Tomyam Soup. Initially we thought the Tomyam Soup is not spicy, but my father in law, my sister in law and I ended up sweating and whining that though the soup is nice, it’s very spicy! LOL. Very nice, but very spicy. It’s more like those Szechuan chillies soup.

It was a nice Father’s day dinner. The damage for 8pax? I don’t know. I just went there to eat and father in law’s kids, aka my brother in law, my sister in law and my husband split the bills to treat my father in law. LOL.


Cleffairy: Quality matters, not quantity.

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Thank you for loving me…

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This is a thank you entry for someone who is very special, and also a birthday dedication. 😀 And no… this is not just for my husband, but for Annie’s two darling boys.

I saw in Annie’s blog earlier on today, that her boys just hit the big number 5, and coincidentally, I had some birthday cupcakes picture from my husband’s birthday and our 8 years anniversary celebration. I thought it’ll be appropriate if I greet her two boys too over here as well.

The cupcakes was made by Cynderella 😀 The Queen of All Sweet Things and the mother of a sweet Cupcake Princess, especially for my husband’s birthday and our anniversary. And I couldn’t thank her more for cooking up her cupcakes for me. They are absolutely sinful and arousing to the tastebuds.

The chocolate cupcakes melts in the mouth and it was so heavenly, and could rival those cupcakes that you can buy from Delectables. And I daresay they are much better than Delectable, as these sinful cupcakes are labour of love. I would any day have hers than any other found in bakeries. And not even Secret Recipe can rival Cynderella’s cupcakes. Her cupcakes are absolutely magical.

Thank you very much, Cynderella for all the sweetness you brought into my life.

And happy birthday, Fearles and Cruz. Stay sweet like the cupcakes, all right? May you both grow up strong and wise. 😀

Cleffairy: This closing message is especially for those who love me. Thank you, for loving me, and for being in my life. And below is a song dedication for you. 😀


Thank you for loving me

It’s hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There’s no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

Lock the doors
We’ll leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn’t see for
Parting my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky’s a different blue

Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you’d make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn’t see
For parting my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah

Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn’t see
You parted my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn’t fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me

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On 20th May…

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It’s 20th May 2010, and it’s been 8 years since I first saw my husband. I was young. Very young. 8 years ago, I was just 17 going on 18. Barely legal, I must say, and we have come a long way.

Yeah, folks, it’s our 8 years anniversary today. And it’s been a hell of a roller coaster ride. Dangerous, exhilarating, and full of shock and surprises. There are good and bad times, but I’m not going to share all my X-rated details here.

I would spare your innocent eyes and ears. I may write mushy stuff for my novels, but…I’m afraid, I don’t tell my own love story very well. Perhaps, when I’m old and have nothing else to do, I might document that.

Anyway, I like to do meaningful things on meaningful dates. And to commemorate my 8 years anniversary with my husband, I’ve changed the layout to something more light on the eyes. It’s blue and much more calmer that the depressing black that I used earlier. 😀

This, signify my hope for a peaceful and a happier relationship with my husband. I hope to celebrate life…(not wait for people to celebrate life for me… as in ‘celebrating someone’s life’ in a funeral) and no more nonsense. I’m sick and tired of those. I want to feel alive, while I’m still young. And yes, from this day forward, to hell those people who are not even worth my regard.

Time, and death, is a funny thing, ladies and gentlemen. things that happened last year made me realized that time is not always on our side, and Death may come knocking at our doorstep anytime it pleases him. Life is too short to be wasted. take it from me… chase your dreams and live life to the fullest while you still can. I’ve made it my very own personal mission this year. Living life to the fullest, and living my dreams.

I’m not a fan of fancy designs. No… I hate those. I hurt my eyes and it annoys me to my very core. I’ve always adored those simple designs that does not look messy. I like this one. And I hope, it’s pleasant to your eyes too.

20th May 2010 is also the date that I chose to launch my book in the US, and it’ll be available for sale, finally, after all the midnight oil I burned. No… it’s no coincidence that the book launch shared the same date as my anniversary.LOL…fiery as I may sound sometimes, I suppose, I’m still a romantic at heart, eh? I want my book to have the same anniversary as me and my husband so that 20th May would be much more meaningful from this year forward. 😀 Another thing for me to celebrate next year. My book anniversary. 😛

I’m blabbering, aren’t I? Please excuse me. It’s been rather a whirlwind of a day. It was my husband’s birthday yesterday as well, and so here I am…wishing him not only a happy birthday, but happy anniversary as well.

Cleffairy: To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.

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Happy Labour Day 2010

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Scheduled entry

Happy Labour Day 2010, folks. Take a break from work and chill. Have a nice weekend with your loved ones. 😀 I’ll be back soon, hopefully.

Cleffairy: The cake of your labour taste the sweetest when you really put your heart into it. 😀

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2 in 1, Happy Birthday, beautiful angels…

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This is one of the time of the year where I wish I’m rich enough to buy lavish gifts to pamper my friends. I am not rich, this is the best I can do…writing a birthday dedication to not only one, but two.

First of all, here’s wishing a happy belated birthday to Mommy Ling, a pretty, young mother of two. I did not really know her earlier on, but I was pleasantly surprised to discover that she’s just around my age, and sweet to boot, unlike me, whose mood is always sourish at all times, and with a temper that can match those live volcano that can erupt anytime.

Yeah, I’m not the kind who can be provoked and I hardly have any sense of humour, but I believe, Mommy Ling is the sweet and docile kind. Mommy Ling is a full time working mother, and therefore, it is quite hard for me to ahemm…to drag her into any of my evil schemes cuz I’m quite flexible with time for being a freelance while she’s not. I do look forward , however, to turn her into an evil being like me.

LMAO… Okay, that’s a bad joke. Mommy Ling would probably run away with the speed that puts an F1 car to shame when she saw this, but what I wanna express here is that I’m looking forward to meet this sweet lady with nice temperament. It would be nice to meet with her daughters too. 😀 I hoped she had a blessed birthday and more peaceful and happy years to come.

Happy belated birthday, Mommy Ling. Stay young and beautiful, and be happy always.

I am bad at writing birthday wishes, am I not? I hope most of you are not bored to death yet, cuz I have another dedication to make, and this time, to my long lost evil sister.

I happened to stumble upon this long lost sister of mine who is definitely my partner in crime earlier this year. She’s beautiful and fiery in nature as well. And in many ways, she’s just like me. We both shared a lot of same interest and I enjoyed her presence in my life immensely. And being the younger one, I get to be pampered and spoiled rotten by this elder evil sister of mine.

She may not admit that she’s been pampering me and the ones she care lately, and she even would threatened to whack my butt silly for even saying this, but I know best. She really do care. Her love for friends is always genuine and unblemished. I love her for that, despite of her evil-ness.

I am not quite sure if she wants me to reveal her identity for she’s quite a shy and low profile person. I’ll just play it safe and spare myself from the agony of suffering her ‘I’ll crucify you for this!”.  By doing so, I’m also sparing my innocent readers the gory details of my… crucification. Yeooowch! (No… I was joking about that. She wouldn’t do that. She’s above killing, believe me.)

But I can’t help but write this for her, as she’s always nice to me, and she’s always there for me during my darkest hour. She was there for me when I was distraught and showered me with wisdom on how to deal with it. She also gave me comfort when I needed it most, and gave me inspiration on how to be a more evil being. She’s just an angel in the form of human being. The kind who will always be there for you and care for you when you needed her the most. A not so sweet, but very caring and kind lady. 😀

She’s one of those gift God sent to me, and I couldn’t help but feel so blessed with her existence in my life, for my life would be dark, boring, and unexciting without her in my life.

So here… Happy Birthday, Jie Jie. You were never just a friend. But a big sister to me. 😀 I’ll pray so that God will bestow you everlasting happiness and peace, and repay all your good deeds in your afterlife.

A big birthday hug for both you, Jie… and Mommy Ling. 😀

Cleffairy: Some friends come and go. But a load others are there to stay for good. Treasure, and cherish them.

ps: I’m posting this earlier, Jie. I wanna be the first to greet you. But looks like somebody else beat me to it.  😛 And sorry for the late greetings over here, Mommy Ling. Do 2 in 1 birthday greeting more fun lah. (Wokay, I wasn’t completely honest, you can kick my ass for being lazy. I know I am lazy!)Kakaka

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Tick tock tick tock…

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Tick tock, tick tock, the clock is ticking, snickering at me, and I can hear an evil witch’s cackling in the background from a dark forest somewhere, awaiting me with a basket of poison apples in hand.

Tick tock, tick tock…the dreaded day is approaching, and I am warning you people… yes, everyone out there… don’t you dare wish me a Happy Chinese New Year, because it’s never quite a happy event for me. It’s a mere obligation to endure each year.

While I wish everyone a very happy time with their family during this blasted festive season, kindly DO NOT wish me a Happy Chinese New Year... or WHATEVER THAT IS EQUIVALENT TO IT. Or shall make you into distorted monster in my novel and blast you and your entire family to the next dimension! Yes, I mean it!

And yes, this is a threat! Don’t bother talking about how fun it can be, and don’t ask me questions either! Have your fun, and leave me to rot!


Cleffairy: O Almighty God, protect me at all times, that I may not be seized and bound. Guard me, that no gun, firearm, bullet or lead, shall touch my body; and that the evil ones shall be weak and burnt in the pit of hell. Protect me, I beseech you, O Almighty God.

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1+1= Annie and Merryn

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The title says all. My mathematic teacher would probably go and dig her own grave and bury herself alive if she saw my equation, but it’s just too bad for her, cuz I’ve always been pretty bad in maths, and I tend to allow my right brain take control of my body.

1+1= Annie and Merryn. Today is about two of my good friend, Annie Q and The Lost Submerryn. I probably should talk about Merryn first, but then again, today is Annie’s birthday, and I want the Supermummy to a pair of twin boys feel special today.

I am bad at writing birthday wishes. They are never pretty or sounded nice. But please bear with me, and here comes the cringe inducing greetings:

Annie, when I first stumble upon your blog through STP’s blog, I practically freaked out and almost swear not to visit your blog again. Why? Because I feel that you are very, very intimidating.

You can make beautiful bentos…and there’s no way in hell I can make my food looks half as beautiful as yours. I am a complete disaster in the kitchen, and I have the power to burn almost anything that I cooked. My recently sodomized negro chicken speaks of my ability in the kitchen.

Another thing that intimidated me is that you’re also a Supermummy… because you had twins… boys no less, and I would have probably dropped dead and turn into a nasty Momster if I were to give birth to twins and take care of them all by myself. I didn’t really want to visit your blog because you made me feel small in comparison to you, as you can do so many things that I cannot do. But you made way into my heart when I was off-guard through your hot, fiery strip dancer entry, and I come to realize, that beneath that intimidating woman,  there’s a sister and a friend inside. And I am so glad that I open up my heart to you, because you’re a very nice woman.

So here you go, Annie… Happy Birthday…. and be 18 at heart forever.

Next up is the famous Lost Submerryn…the lovely, bombshell Merryn. She lost her way while bloghopping and resurfaced at my blog not long ago, and yesterday, her Chinese New Year greeting card escaped from it’s torturous prison in Post Malaysia and made it’s way to my mailbox, and it’s the only thing that brought smile to my face yesterday.


Thank you, Merryn…God knows how long it has been since someone sent me the traditional greetings cards. LOL… I think it’s almost 10 years…technology takes over the world, I guess, and not many bothers to send greetings card anymore. You’re the first to send me cards in almost a decade. Now… that’s record breaking! And it is amazing that I received the whole card and not just the envelop. Because someone opened my card before it landed in my mail box. 🙁 There’s black finger print on it. 🙁 I hate it when this sort of thing happened, but, your card inspired a smile on my face nevertheless. Thank you, big sister! 😀


Cleffairy: I guess… it is true, isn’t it? Open up your heart and you’ll find love and friends everywhere. I did and I found Annie and Merryn. 😀

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